NOV 25

I dont know why it turns out in this way....i'm controlling myself not to lost my patience again but i did.

i'm so sad..feel like crying...i dont know is that my fault or what...i have no idea of it...why it turns out like this...M i being ridiculous???

all i need is your care.....why i disagree for gaming on weekdays the reason as you see...keep arguing everyday because you are tire for everything...even lazy yo argue with me ..i'm not trying to bring out all the subjects but please after i had back have you really look at me....have you really care for me....it seems like you just do what ever i wanted...its like forcing you to choose...i have done the best to accompany you even in the midnight...everyday i after work must continue with my cookies until late aT NIGHT...i have no more time left behind...all the time i'm free to talk to you is midnight....what ever will do ...i shall prevent myself to call up again and again...it makes me look like i'm so easy going type..i shouldnt keep look after you than myself....i seems like treat you the better than own self...seems like the thing is going the wrong way....i should change it back on the original position...it just like you said i have made you feel 'safe' in this relationship because i made you feel i'm falling deep into it......i shall return to the actual me....because i'm not being myself in the present...i have became the one i dont know who m i

Nov 24

Today i had done tonnes of cookies with friend it quite not a bad result for the 1st day to work together ^^

you know why m i keep mad at you recently??? because i'm going to leave soon, you seems cant really prove to me you able to take good care of yourself and be responsible upon your own...just hope you will really know where is my point..i'm not trying to be ridiculous to angry for nothing but you..for not really focus on me..i'm not that type....

NOV 23

I'm so so so angry and mad at someone today....

He kept complaining me that his dad will murmuring on him if he still keep going out to play game until late at night in the weekdays , but he still continue to do so.....i dont know why cant you just go play in the weekend....i dont mean not letting you to enjoy gaming with your fren but why must be week day??? arent you going to work tmr morning?? what i'm mad on you is i hope you could behave yourself not letting ur dad keep mumbling on you....but it seems oppose to wat i want..cant you prove it to ur dad u could be a responsible person too?? i mad on you because i'm sad not angry...i'm sad to heard you mentioning ur dad keep not agree with what are you doing...is this what you want for the future???i have no idea...perhap my leaving would be better for us in the coming FEB because i'm not around and i have no idea what are you doing...you could enjoy ur life.. i have neva try to feel like cry when i mad on someone and 'congratz' you are the 1st..maybe its my fault to be over react ..maybe it will be fine i i'm being care free ...perhaps i should try out to let you alone and not to call up everyday...

Hadtyai

Wao , i could said its was my torturing trip ever i had but fun and memorable^^

From the beginning due to Penang Bridge Marathon..we had to use ferry go over Butterworth to took bus to Hadtyai...

Early in the morning about 4am with heavy down pour...two person sharing one small umbrella....how do you feel????...i'm wet like cats and dogs....Finally everything settled down by 7am and our journey started...Had our breakfast around BM area.....the main purpose going over there is the Lantern Festival.....it was fun ...especially the floating market...the foods look so delicious......and special...when the way back...we met a heavy traffic congestion at Thai immigration....i took 2 hrs to reach Malaysia's Custom with just 20min to walk from there.......me and mum had Marry Brown's burger as dinner....

after home i'm so eager to hear my dear dear voice but it was so disappointed he is gaming with his Gang....perhaps going to sleep in awhile ^^

Miss the TIME

Damn love F6 life with those freaking girls...ponteng for Big Apples Donuts opening ceremony for Free 6 Donuts PAck!!! Approx 6 girls running out from sch compound while the lesson is on with tonnes of cc TVs.....Ponteng For fine art temple's Rice^^ for Vietnamese's water festival...playing water gun in Vietnamese temples...Form teacher also headache with those "MC" girls ^^...eating nasi lemak infront of teacher..as breakfast somemore 'tar bao' for some teachers ^^....we girls so so so famous....for Eating in class...group ponteng...belanja teacher makan.....BLAh blah bLah~~~..i do remember almost recess time lazy to queuing up for buying food...tell tutor we going for 'DUTY' run away from class straight flee to canteen...hahazx which means duty for filling our own stomach because no need wait in a long queue...I'm wondering why????WHY?? why we just done those silly stuff in Form 6 not the lower form ^^....still searching for no ans.....perhaps have lots of freaking girls around hahahzx.....miss Ya girls lots...see YA soon

Bon voyage in the trip of the future...

A Letter for HIM

Hope you really take your promise^^

i'll be waiting for you to finish your degree...

Days in Penang is getting less....i know its hard for you too but why dont just think in the other way[这次的别离意味着下一次的重逢] ^^take it as a challenge for our relationship, better for our future..and to show our parents we can make it....Let they feel we really grown up d^^..no more kiddy stuff....you know it...its not easy for us to maintain our relationship until now...you know we are so so so different from other couples...you know the times when the relationship starts its really kill u up rite???? So lets make the impossibles happens...everything is possible.....i wont regret for everything happened in this year....meeting you is another chance for me at here^^ maybe u feel its FAKE..but honestly really thanks for making me stand up still until today^^...thanks for your thoughtful personalities....thanks for loving me hahazx......And yet thanks dear dear and his family for willing to be my white mouse and support me in my baking stuff....willing to try and comments hahazx.....thanks dear dear so i can go to his house makan and makan {i'm so bad}hehe....LOVE YOU...

Complicated Mood

Suddenly wana shout out....realise i love my daddy more than mum just i doesnt show it out^^

I used to feel like her boy is more important than me SERIOUSLY.....

no matter how i treat my daddy he just kept silent..{i'm so so salah diri} haha....

Daddy will lets me try everything i want...and wont break my dream but MUM...used to break my dream...i know the reality is cruel...if i dare not dream DEN WHERE IS MY FUTURE???

IF i'm not that stubborn insist i wana took up baking course in this MARCh 2010...then i'm wasted my 1 YEAR time in 2010...i cant earn some pocket $ from home bake.....

I'm sort like i ever tried i wont give up...even i have wasted my money...i'm invest on Experience and learn from the mistakes i had done...some how i feel it is worth^^i just wana said 'MUM I"M NOT A KIDS ANYMORE'....just treat me like daddy doess^^

Going to Aus soon...can feel daddy's mood is swing....hard for him that daughter is going to leave home.......I dont worry about my BF actually {Blekszz}...cause i believe in him ...we work out for our future together..separate for 3 years would brings bright future for the later 10 years perhaps 30 years^^he is going to take up Diploma EE...he wana pursue his dream to UK^^ better to be German^^ Finally we will end up at the same par...meet again after 3 years for a mature relationship^^....

Bro ....he grown up d nothing much to worry about him...hehe...just let him do wat ever he wana try..let him feel the outcome once he tried....stubborn as me too^^...so i end up like know nothing about my bro even his course hahazx