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this time i really dont understand, he dislike me i think, i never tried to get ppl shout at me like this, i'm so scare helpless, pain ,and i'm all alone here......no body can help me...i dont wana let my parents know i dont wana make them worry. maybe leaving is the best for me,..this time i have no idea how to do, i never cry until sleep and wake up cry again........i should leave for the sake of my aunt and uncle..i dont know why, is this challenge given by GOD? he just bang everything and get so frustrated. i'm scare, i really do ...i feel unsafe to keep staying where am i right now, i dare not step out from room while he is around, i really scare.......please can anyone help me???? i'm all alone

[ MAR15 ]

I am so relieving that i have completed my nutrition report just now, tends to edit something after confirmation with the tutor. i still have many to go..iportfolio,revision, organise my notes....lots to do but not that loads...haha...its late and time to bed ...nite

[ MAR 11 ]

The globe is changing everyday,its like get mutated , recently we can see there are many earth quake cases around the region in Asia and pacific ocean.today i saw the news in Japan, a terrific tsunami hit Japan in the afternoon... causalities are increasing sharply, whats happening now in our globe??? No one know what will be going on tomorrow. It seems like a challenge to us human being, only for those 'fittest' to survive like in Darwin's quote - the evolution of animals. As similar to mankind now, we evolute everyday to adapt to the change around us, even the weather, working circumference..etc. And now its the largest evolution will be occur under the selection of GOD. We have to changed in order to leave in critic condition. I'm so sad to heard about what happened in Japan this afternoon, it a sudden news, have no idea all the friends in Japan ..are you safe??? Everything just happened so suddenly without any notice. I'm worried about the relatives in hometown, so miss them...

[ MAR 9 ]

逞强就要坚持下去，一时的坚强，会让自己显得更悲哀。

Have no idea why suddenly think of this phrase, haha..today i got the news that one of the member in my family is dying, i have no idea what am i doing today, its like the corpse without soul hahazx.....

today i'm so blank during the chemistry lab i so hate myself, communication break down with my partners, because i cant understand her accent...barely catch it.....

[ MAR 7 ]

Actually today is public holiday in Perth here, but nothing special. The mood here for everyday is the same no matter weekends or holidays. Its totally different in Penang, when there is holiday or weekends u can feel the different but not here^^holiday in Penang i could hang out with friends , shopping ,chit chatting or movie with beloved but not here. Everything is going to be different for the period i'm staying here, i have no transport to go around, for me is i have my own transport..Perth is really a nice place not the boring..depends on how you take it...at night i could have my choice to go for coffee perhaps and snapping job if i have the DSLR. i'm lacking of few things to enjoy in Perth haha, GPS AND DSLR. with this 2 i can take bus going anywhere i want to be..even to Europe !!!!!once i have all the gadgets i need..i'll start my backpack tour haha...i'll make my dream comes true and live without regrets in my life as i have enjoy and fill up my life without wasting it...maybe for other ppl i'm sort like spend over...but i have done what i want to be along my life, i dont think you got the chance to work out your favorite as you think money is very important and keep saving it....i swear at the end when u flash back ,you will realize you have lots of $ by keep work, earn and save.But you have wasted your life for $..!!!

莎士比亚说：

再好的东西，都有失去的一天。

再深的记忆，也有淡忘的一天。

再爱的人，也有远走的一天。

再美的梦，也有苏醒的一天。

该放弃的决不挽留。

该珍惜的决不放手，

分手后不可以做朋友，因为彼此伤害过！

也不可以做敌人，因为彼此深爱过。

刘心武说：

不要指望，麻雀会飞得很高。

高处的天空，那是老鹰的领地。

麻雀如果摆正了自己的位子，它照样会过得很幸福！

亦舒说：

人们日常所犯最大的错误，是对陌生人太客气，

而对亲密的人太苛刻，把这个坏习惯改过来，天下太平。

郭敬明说：

我终于发现自己看人的眼光太过简单，我从来没有去想面具下面是怎样的面容，我总是直接把面具当作面孔来对待。却忘了笑脸面具下往往都是一张流着泪的脸。

刘心武说：

对不起是一种真诚，

没关系是一种风度。

如果你付出了真诚，却得不到风度，

那只能说明对方的无知与粗俗！

安妮宝贝说：

当一个女子在看天空的时候，

她并不想寻找什么。

她只是寂寞。

张小娴说：

爱，从来就是一件千回百转的事。

不曾被离弃，不曾受伤害，怎懂得爱人？

亦舒说：

无论怎么样，一个人借故堕落总是不值得原谅的，越是没有人爱，越要爱自己。

刘心武说：

与其讨好别人，不如武装自己；

与其逃避现实，不如笑对人生；

与其听风听雨，不如昂首出击！

张爱玲说：

娶了红玫瑰，久而久之，红玫瑰就变成了墙上的一抹蚊子血，白玫瑰还是“床前明月光”；

娶了白玫瑰，白玫瑰就是衣服上的一粒饭渣，红的还是心口上的一粒朱砂痣。

东方生活选自读者文摘

[ MAR 4 ]

Nutrition Lab i had just now was awesome, we got to work individually to cook the burger patty and weighted it^^ the best was we could had it as lunch after the class ha ha .

Actually the life in Perth still not that bad..relaxing^^

every time i saw the people with baby making me craze and desire to have one haha, not sure izzit because of the loneliness or i wish to have one earlier..i dont understand some time i'm so envy those friends who get married early and have a baby, not like me still in university working out for certificate!!! after graduate i still have to spend some more time to earn enough to raise up m baby haha....i not sure what will i do if i know my husband is infertile!!!hahahzx...i'm so mean!!! choose to have baby rather than a husband hehe....my children will be everything for me....even a single mother i will also work for the best for my children...hahazx...maybe with the history and family background making me tough even i get divorce^^children are like angels in the heaven..so pure and lovely

[ MAR 2 ]

I guess i have know few new friends tough let me flash back their name

yvonne yow rui min same course with me, Johor,canning college

melody same course, Sabah,sunway kl

mei kei same course,Selangor,CIC

jade, art and commence BM,canning college

karen ng, account sarawak,canning college

sabita Nursing nepal,5 years in sydney

catherine Psychology,from CIC program

gillian OT ,2 years perth

shannen from interprofessional gp Human Bio perth

Naomi from interprofessional gp physiology perth

owen from interprofessional gp OT,singapore

Charlotte poon,singapore, pshycology,same HSF100

Melissa, kuantan, last year psychology

Sean sng, chemical engineering, penang, 2 more years to go

For today, i think nothing much to talk about. After the class start , it making me feel like the time is just passing by so fast. Today's class was making me sleepy, because the way the lecture conducting the class is like he was talking with closing mouth, i felt like hard to catch the point, i hope i'll be fine soon for the rest of the class. god bless me.